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Erstazreal is the 6th song-based album from Cloudland Blue Quartet (Crispycat 0705 - 8 October 2007)


released October 8, 2007

Cloudland Blue Quartet
Composition, Performance, Production & Design by David Reilly

Written and recorded at Crispycat Studio, Edinburgh, July 1 2005 – July 19 2007

1, 3, 6, 9, 12, 17, 20 © David Reilly 2007
2, 4, 5, 7, 8, 10, 11, 13, 14, 15, 16, 19 © David Reilly 2006
18 © David Reilly 2005

This Recording (P) 2007 Crispycat Recordings

Project Dates:
July 1 2005
March 5, 6 2006
April 16, 23, 30 2006
May 28 2006
July 9 2006
August 6, 26 2006
September 18 2006
January 16, 17, 20, 24, 28, 31 2007
February 1, 3, 9, 11, 12, 14, 17, 18, 21, 23, 24, 25 2007
March 24, 25, 30, 31 2007
April 1, 2, 3, 7, 8, 9, 11, 14, 15, 16, 21, 22 2007
June 3, 16, 17, 20 2007
July 19 2007

Fires at Impossible Songs, 15 April and 15 June 2007

Produced by David Reilly
Executive Producer - Anne Reilly

Special Thanks to
Jamie Frain, Andy Wilson, Craig Sutherland, Stuart Cobley, Alan Brodie, John Barclay, Ali Hutton



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Cloudland Blue Quartet Edinburgh, UK

Initially influenced by Fripp & Eno's "No Pussyfooting" and The Velvet Underground's debut, CBQ started making music in 1977 by spending hours creating drones using sellotape on the keys of his dad's old Bontempi Organ. He has been soundscaping ever since. The subsequent junk shop purchase of an old electric guitar & fuzzbox, followed by a 2nd hand Beatles songbook, led him into songwriting... ... more

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Track Name: The Happy Song
For the first time ever in my long, long life
I’m happy with who I am
I can drink in the bar, look in the mirror,
Without thinking of the ice cream van
And I love how I look in my brand new clothes
And I’ll take some of them and a couple of those
And now when I look down, down at the ground,
I’m so surprised I can see my toes
And boy is it great at the garden gate,
When you kiss me on the end of my nose
And I love how I look in my brand new clothes
And I’ll take some of them and a couple of those
At last I can be free, and really be just me,
And nothing can go wrong
And self esteem is a wonderful thing
When you feel like you’re the king
Of every damn thing
When you’ve been down and out
In a sea of doubt
Crying in your bedroom, never letting it out
Now my picture’s on your wall
And I’m having a ball
And when I pinch myself to wake up
That don’t work at all
I keep telling myself that this is really real
I never thought that I would ever have
A reason to feel
And I don’t have to hide now you’re by my side, And you love me for who I am
And I can go and I can buy anything I want, From the man in the ice cream van
And I love how I look in my brand new clothes
And I’ll take some of them and a couple of those
Track Name: The Angels' Kiss
Children down on the subway
Riding the fast cars
Taking their lives in their hands
Out there under the streetlamps
Down on the corner
Holding their heads in their hands
And I know you won’t look at me
And I know you will never see
The heartbreak that I’m feeling now
I need to make my way somehow
But these eyes never make contact
Never see daylight
Never just glisten and smile
You don’t want to believe that
All this could be
That’s something that might drive you wild
But the angels turn their backs on me
Why can’t they see what I can see?
They could take me up and out of this
And save me with their angels’ kiss
Track Name: Rabbits on the Verge
Rabbits on the verge of the motorway,
Minding their own business, eating grass all day
I am just like them, I never do look up,
And I don’t want to explore,
And I eat and eat all day
And when the sun goes down at night,
I go back home and I sit tight
Bathed in the television’s light
Rabbits never know, cars go fast not slow,
They’re minding their own business,
Then one day they go
And I am just like them, I never do look up,
And I don’t want to explore,
And one day I will go
Track Name: He Thinks of You
And when the music’s over
You sit there all alone
Nothing has changed and you’re still as lonely
You look at the singer
Think his song is for you
But how could he know
The torture and torment
You’ve suffered for years
And so you leave with just a smile
And head for home
Behind the door you sit and cry
He thinks of you after you’ve gone
He’ll never know
He thinks of you he wonders why....
Next time he’s there
You make sure you’re there too
You nurse your coffee and stare into space
But you hear his songs
And you think they’re about you
The torture and torment
You’ve suffered for years
Track Name: The Unfortunate
The little man sits by the phone
Awaits a call from an old friend
It never comes
He’s staying home tonight again.
Switch on the TV
There’s an old Clark Gable film
He’s seen before. He’s not got cable
He can’t afford the monthly rent - no
He thinks he is the lucky one
But he is really the unlucky one
Go to the kitchen to the fridge,
He gets a beer he checks the date
It’s been so long right at the back
And now perhaps it’s out of date.
Oh yes it is but he don’t care,
He’s going to drink it anyway.
He pops it open and spills the beer
All down his shirt - oh
Track Name: Blue Eyes Across the Room
I drove my car into a wall,
The airbag must have saved me
And I felt nothing at all,
As I stumbled from the wreckage
I was high on God knows what that night
But I felt nothing was too high
And I fell, I fell,
For your blue eyes across the room
In A&E I floated around for hours,
Counting all the flowers delivered to the desk
You came for me, you sat with me for hours
I wish I’d bought you flowers
There was a fireball, the airbag didn’t save me
And I felt nothing at all
I didn’t make it from the wreckage
I was high on God knows what that night
Now I know that I was wrong
And I fell, I fell,
For your blue eyes across the room
In A&E you waited around for hours
Counting all the flowers delivered to my bed
You’d come for me you sat with me for hours
You hadn’t bought me flowers
Track Name: I Still Write You Letters (I Just Don't Send Them Anymore)
I still write you letters
I just don’t send them anymore
And in the dark of my room they lie on the floor
And one day I’ll collect them
And I’ll unlock my door
And I’ll go to the mailbox
And I’ll mail them for sure
And you’ll learn what I’ve thought
For so many years
That you hammered me down
With the nails of your tears
But I don’t want you back, I think I’ve moved on
Cos I rent someone’s flat and I own my own gun
What’s there left to say, I’ll never get away
From all the pain inside
I know where you live but I won’t come around
Cos I can’t take the pain of hearing the sound
Of your voice as you say “You’re looking fine
Have you moved on in your life?
Cos I’ve moved on in mine”
What’s there left to say, I’ll never get away
From all the pain inside,
Now there’s nowhere I can hide
And the world is cold and dark,
I’ll ever get that spark, the one that lights my fire
Well maybe you were good for me
Or maybe it was fantasy
But you made me feel like my world was for real
And you took me away from the Play for Today
And you put them all down
Without making a sound
Maybe it was fantasy or maybe it was jealousy
But you went away despite all I could say
And the world seems so dark
Without you and your spark
That lit up my life for so long
So I’ll keep adding letters to that pile on the floor
Till I’ve lost all the truth
Of what happened before
And you’ve changed in my head
To something so blurred
That I don’t need to write one more useless word
Track Name: Waiting to Die
You used to walk in the midday sun
You used to know almost everyone
But now you’re lost, you’re counting the cost
You keep your heart in a coating of frost
And tell yourself you’re having fun
You wandered aimlessly through your childhood
You squandered years in your youth
Your twenties, thirties, forties
All just passed you by
And now you’re waiting, you’re waiting to die
So here you come, you’re all dressed in black
Those stupid shoes and that so-called trendy hat
You thought it was early now you realise it’s late
You never thought you’d ever
Find yourself in this state
And now you’re waiting, you’re waiting to die
And now at last, it’s the end of the line
For the first time ever in your long long life You’re feeling fine
Park your car and walk down to the shore
Suddenly you realise you don’t care anymore
You’re not waiting, you’re not waiting to die
Track Name: Another Piece of Cake
You sit and talk and talk and talk about your life
You’re so engrossed with what you’ve got, You’ll never know just what I’m like
You like your nails and you like your eyes
You don’t like your lack of cash
And ever since that night out on the tiles
You’ve had a rather nasty rash
And here comes another piece of cake
All covered in cream
You’ve forgotten just what the mirror says
And you’re living in a dream
You’re just so fat it’s quite grotesque
And your mouth it never stops
You’re either stuffing it full of fatty foods
Or talking ‘bout yourself non-stop
You never listen to a single word I say
I might as well talk to the wall
But if you don’t stop you might just drop
Without a safety net for your fall
I can’t believe despite all this
Your face is always smiling
Deep down inside you can’t deny
The thin you feels they’re drowning
Track Name: The Luckiest Man Alive
And when it all collapsed I was underneath
In three weeks’ time a soldier came
And pulled me from beneath
And I looked so pathetic,
My body burned and broken
As the cameras were watching me,
I heard your words so softly spoken
“You are the luckiest man,
The luckiest man alive
You’re going to live every day from now,
Like the last day of your life
And you’ll be so glad to have me here,
To have me by your side
And even though you’re broken in two,
You’ll have no reason to hide”
Then you said “I won’t go away and
I’ll be with you every day
I’ll always be right by your side
Until the day you die...”
You walked into my life
Like you had always been around
I’d never seen your face before
Even in amongst the crowd
And as you came towards me slowly
I saw that look within your eyes
The one that said you wanted me
And there could be no compromise
I was shocked that this could be
I did not represent a prize
That did not seem to bother you
As you gazed into my eyes
And you took my hand and you led me down Into the blackness of your soul
It was far too late to turn around
When I realised your goal
When you said “I have come to take you
And you will not get away
You are mine and what is yours is mine
Today and everyday”
Track Name: The Golden House
You think your so cool, oh no,
Well no one else in here does
To us you’re just a fool, oh yeah,
You’ve got a lot to learn now
And when you walk into the room,
We all roll our eyes then scream
The so called saviour of our land
You want us all to take your hand
Your Golden House is built on sand
And its façade’s so see-through
Everything you do, you do for you,
Don’t think that we don’t understand
You think your so cool, oh no,
well no one else in here does
You love to break the rules, oh yeah,
You think you’re so unique now
Track Name: Go Away and Leave Me here
I can’t describe just how I feel
At this precise moment in time
So I won’t try, I’ll just say
“Thanks for being here”
I see you, I know you, I want you always
To be with me, stay with me, don’t leave me
Don’t leave me please
Cos if you go away and leave me here
To stay alone without you here
If you go away and leave me here
How can I go on?
When I look back upon our life
Together here in our “happy” home
I can’t believe it’s come to this, it can’t be true
You loved me, I love you, and I always will
Why can’t you stay we can work things through
There’s nothing left for me to do,
I’ve ruined everything we had
There’s no way back for you and me
You hate me, I can’t blame you,
How can I after all the things I’ve done,
The things I’ve said, there’s nothing left
I know you have to leave
Track Name: Starting to Worry
In a European town,
The summer sun is going down,
And I’m sitting at a pavement café
And I’m thinking of our love,
And the times that we have had,
And I’m hoping that it never changes
You’ve been gone so long now
I’m starting to worry, yes I’m starting to worry
I can’t quite place this feeling
But the passers by, they flicker as they hurry
And now I am looking at my watch
And I just don’t understand
Have I forgotten something, and can you tell me
What is that on the back my hand?
And then it all comes back to me,
Just how I lost my memory
I lost you many years ago
And now I’m sitting on my bed
The machines are everywhere I look now
And they’re monitoring my brain,
Trying to see if I’m insane
The wires are everywhere I look now
Track Name: The Secret of My Success
I get ideas from everywhere
From little books from who knows where
I surf the net and find the lines
Before I know it’s turned out fine
And no-one knows just how this works
They probably think that this must hurt
And they believe it’s what I feel
But I know it’s not really real
All this heartache all this pain
And now here comes that song again
They sound the same maybe it’s true
These songs are all about me and you
I take the words from here and there,
Just things I’ve seen that catch my eye
I hardly have a new idea,
There must be much that passes me by
And late at night when I’m in bed,
The words are spinning round my head
And suddenly they all make sense,
I see at last just what I meant
Or am I reading too much in,
Am I committing the cardinal sin
Of writers all around the world,
Believing art attracts the girls
And now here comes another song
The words just flow they can’t be wrong
Cos they’re from deep inside my head
And this is all that I have said
Another day another song
Another word that rhymes with song
I can’t dissect or I’ll find out
Just what this song is all about
Track Name: The Angels Took His Soul
Well she stayed with him till daybreak,
When the birds began to sing
Then came the sound of voices,
Of tables and chairs moving
And the voices carried up to her
And a knock came at the door
And she hoped it was the doctor
She could not take it anymore
She’d sat with him sipping champagne,
His body on the bed
Thinking of all the little things,
That would now remain unsaid
And he looked a lot more healthy,
In death than he had in life
And she knew more than anyone,
Thirty years she’d been his wife
And she thought of all they’d done,
Throughout those thirty years
All the things they’d never talked about
And all her unseen tears
Now she wept this time before him,
As he lay upon the bed
She felt her life was wasted,
And he just lay there dead
One life is all you get, one life is what you take
One life is what you make,
One life is almost gone, One life is all you get, One life, it’s not over yet
And the angels took his soul,
And put a smile upon her face
Track Name: Lights Out
As I walk out in the night
The stars shine up above
Then blink out one by one
And it’s suddenly so quiet
And I can’t see where I am
And once they were so bright
They lit up my whole life
Now they blink out one by one
And I’m feeling so alone
And I can’t see where I am
And then I’m out overlooking the whole town
Looks so small as I look down
And the streetlights give me hope
That I haven’t lost it all
And somehow I’ll find your love
On the street that we call home
The fire burns brightly in our hearth
Our love burns brightly in our hearts
We keep the darkness from our door
And we’ll always be in love
And I’ll never leave your side
And you never will leave mine
Track Name: The End of Everything
They took my car away today
They took my home to make me pay
For all the things I’ve had I shouldn’t have
I had a promising career,
In a little town 10 miles away
I never thought that I would stay so long
And if I’d known what I know now,
That everything is up for grabs
And nothing is beyond our grasp at all
And we can reach right out and touch the stars,
Clean up the mess and heal the scars
And feel again
Is this the end of everything?
I ended up behind this bar,
Without my house without my car
I never thought that you would leave me too
And now there’s little left to say,
They’re taking me away today
I never thought that I could stay so long
Track Name: No Concrete Idea
I have no concrete idea
Of what my life is all about
I drift along without a care
Why am I here, what’s it all for,
What is the purpose of my life
I drift along without a care
I see the trees, I see the sky,
I love the sea, I wonder why
Why is it that we are all here
It cannot be that this is chance
There must surely be a truth
Behind the wonders that we see
If there’s a God somewhere above,
Why does he not proclaim his love
Are we alone spinning in space,
The lonely know this is the place
The place we’re born and where we’ll die
Why am I here, what’s it all for,
What is the purpose of my life
Can there just be no reason why
Day by day I make my way
Towards the ashes in the vase
I drift along without a care
Can it be true there’s nothing more,
Why then do we exist at all
To struggle here upon the earth
Knowing we’ll never leave this berth
To live and die under the sun
No holy father no holy one
There is no God up there above
We only live to give our love
Track Name: Ersatzreal pt 2
We sit together in a darkened room,
We are our own cabal
We walk in black and our whips do crack,
Along the bright canal
We sing our songs by leafy ponds,
We are the black chorale
We put our writings on your glass
By way of our decal
We are the ones beyond your dreams,
We seek the femme fatale
We drive the world from deep below
A simple white locale
We read old books, we paint and cook,
We are Les Fleurs du Mal
We drink from coloured, painted bottles,
We drink the black Mescal
We work as best we ever can
To bring down your morale
We use all that we can to live,
We even use Pascal
We put your loved one on the cross
On the original Paschal
We adorn our clothes, adorn our hats
With the feathers of Quetzal
We will prevail you know we will,
We are Ersatzreal
We are the ones beyond your dreams,
We are Ersatzreal